Our First Disappointment

DISAPPOINTING NEWS
It has been several weeks since my first post, basically because we have been waiting to hear from the social worker of the Southern California youth we were interested in meeting. We finally got word yesterday that he does not want to move out of his area so it looks like that match is not going to happen. I have to say I was surprised how difficult it was to receive that news. Chris had warned me not to get my hopes too high since this particular match was not likely to happen due to the distance. But I couldn't help imagining that it was him who we would be bringing on our road trip to the Grand Canyon this fall, or who we would sit with at the dining room table to help with his homework. Now that the match has fallen through there's a real sense of loss there, even though we've never met.

On the brighter side, the process should be a bit easier now, and dare I say quicker, working with a youth from our local area. It will be easier to set up disclosure meetings and to meet the youth several times before he moves in. I've been cheering myself up by saying that this whole turn of events just means that the son we were meant to have is closer than we thought. I just hope that the boy in So Cal knows that there's someone out there who wanted him to be in their family.